e-Motivation

Well, I'm back again having recovered from a particularly nasty bout of pleurisy.

Having not done any gaming for a few weeks I was looking forward to hitting the ground running and getting back to my winning ways. Well I managed a couple of really good play sessions before I found myself strangely de-motivated by literally ALL my online games? With this is mind I've been trying to analyse what is causing this lack of enthusiasm.

Is it the individual games themselves? I'm a fairly broad spectrum gamer with MMORPG's and FPS's my more prominent choice, but even the RTS games I have are played with/against online opponents. I cant pin down anything with the games that has changed or is annoying me or whatever.

Is it the people I play with?  I have a great bunch of online friends, many of whom are also now genuine RL friends (I have been to 2 of their weddings and been cited in 1 divorce) so I'm pretty sure its not them, and any opponents I play against are just some random person that I really have none or very little feelings towards.

Is it me?  Well, maybe thats the crux of the issue?  The one thing that is constant with my gaming is me. I'm happy enough in myself. Work's going ok, home life is pretty good, not overly stressed, social life is sorted. Hmm, what else is there?

I'm honestly at a loss to explain this apparent lack of motivation. Hang on........... "apparent" lack of motivation?  Maybe I should look at what I've actually done lately, gaming-wise.

Ok, so here's the summary since I returned from illness: -

Thursday - (MMORPG) PvP'd for about 3-4 hours racking up an impressive kill tally. Nearly a full group of guild mates were involved. Logged to play an RTS but only managed 10-15mins before quitting to watch tv

Friday - (RTS) 2 hours killing people on my favourite maps, then log into the mmorpg for a couple of hours pew-pew. Not much happening so log off and go back to the RTS

Saturday - no gaming as went wedding suit shopping (not my wedding!!) and then enjoyed a sun-drenched BBQ

Sunday - some RTS, some MMO then beta testing an upcoming game for about 4 hours

Monday (last night) -  home late, loads of phone calls but managed 4 hours on the mmo

Ok, so on the face of it there's still quite alot being played, so where are these feelings of apathy coming from?  I think it can be down to the TIME that I'm typically playing and that I'm hitting some kind of fatigue barrier? I am going to bed earlier than I used to. OMG I think I've cracked it !!!

I'm getting OLD.........